*SIGHS* So much I could say but alas I will keep it as simple as possible. I'm not really sure why you felt the need to come here at all. You stated you new this site existed as if it was eating you up inside not to have a poke around here. What purpose does that serve you or Jehovah? Do you not trust enough when the Society warns it's flock to stay away from sites like these. It was my understanding when I was a witness that reading apostate material was an unforgiveable sin? That all leads me to believe then that you came here for another reason. Did you find what you were looking for? There is a reason people get defensive without provacation is it because you yourself have doubts and by defending your stance it gives you some temporary peace of mind?
Not all of us here had all that bad of an experience with being Jehovah's Witnesses. A lot of us were not abused or have bad parents or bad experiences with congregations or elders. For me it was the contrary I had some really good experiences with congregations and elders and still to this day I am thankful that I was raised with good moral values. You say that JW's are so happy but my friend you are poorly mistaken. I knew more sad depressed people who were JW's then I do in the so-called "World" Do you know why that is? Because you live a lie one that is forced upon you without you even realizing it...Because the Society is an emotional vampire that sucks people's willpower so slowly you don't even notice what you have become, a pawn....
Deprogamming is a strange and hard but extremely rewarding process Do you know why? Because in the end I get to be the best me I can be. A me that makes her own decisions and chooses her own actions as well as faces her own consquences.
Someone said the Society asked "what is the hardest thing about being in the truth?" I say "It's living the lie"
~Mad Love~ Miss Bliss